she kept all the pain inside. now she has got
nothin' to hide. at such a young age she took her
own life. now she's seein things that come in our
dreams at night. she's a dreamer. she dosn't
know, things will never be the same again. she'll
always been 17. that girl has love.
hey ~
last night i watched suzanne's diary for nicholas. it was a movie on cbs or something and oooomgosh. it was SOO sad.
its a love story and this woman has a heart attack & she's only 33. so she has to have like something bipass surgery or something. and b/c of her heart disease there's a lot of pregnacy risks so her b/f dumps her cause he wants a family. so she moves, falls in love, gets married [when he purposed, they were walking on the beach and she told him how she has high pregnancy risks and he was like i want you more then a family. and he was like "whats that?" and she was like "a rock." and he was like "no, i dont think it is!" and she was like "yeah, hunny, look it's just a rock!" and kicked it & int he sadn was a ring. so sweet!<3] gets pregnant,& has a baby [she almost died tho] and then the day the baby [who was *soo* cute btw] turns 4 months old she goes into town to pick up his pictures and had a heart attack on the way there and died in a wreck. then in shows the guy/dad sitting in the nursery and hes sitting by the crib and hes talking about how he touches the babys cheek and hes like "but you arnt in your crib because mommy took you into town that day."  i cried sooo much. it was a really good movie tho.
today was boring. im 2% away from a B- in algebra!! i have to get an 83 before friday or im grounded untill midterms!! lol
FIRST *HOME* TRACK MEET TOMORROW.. so nervous. 4x800, 800, 1600, 3200. im going to be so dead. we havn't even run that much in a practice lol. im guessing 6:20's [i will be pissed after that race, even tho im expecting it] for my 1600. absolutley no idea for 800. & 2 mile i will simply suck. theres a girl from teyas valley who ALREADY RAN IN THE 11'S THIS SEASON! that would be like 5:30 miles back to back. lol. hmm, might be lapped a few times by her!! but yeah, ill do terrible in that b/c ill be so tired from all the other stuff + its 8 laps, kinda hard to get motivated for that. haha oh well, at least there's no pressure this year. except the relay cause it's for my teammates too. which ps-i hate having the worst time. I MISS MIDDLE SCHOOL TRACK!! lol esp. 7th grade, those were the days. but w/e.
g o 0 d n i G h T ~
   
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lol, CANT WAIT!!!! okay so yeah i was in so much pain & it was SOOO windy today, after the 4x800 i didn't even bother to warm up or stretch before any of the other events, go me.
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